From Sabotage to Safety: My Story
Every time I would decide to go hard for my business and create a plan, I would literally get sick and lose my voice (one year I got sick 9 months out of the year) or sabotage my own success some other way. If my plan was working, I would stop right when the momentum was building and I couldn’t figure out why.
I wanted to grow.
I wanted to support my family.
I wanted to be the Proverbs 31 woman.
I couldn't figure out why I felt so blocked every time I was determined to push out of my comfort zone.
All of my teenage years, I was told by my father that I wasn't as important as a man and that I could never be as successful as a man. I was spiritually and emotionally abused with scripture through brainwashing, gaslighting, and manipulation.
I ran away from home at 18 and started trying to build a life and heal from the past. At the time, I didn’t understand how deeply that abuse had wired my nervous system. Even though I was determined to be successful, my body was still carrying those beliefs.
When I got married, my husband and I struggled financially for years. I vividly remember the afternoon sitting in our 34 foot fifth wheel with our 2 girls under 3 crying while I was doing the budget. I felt completely hopeless because no matter how I crunched the numbers, there was still not enough. That’s when I decided something had to change and I started my own business to help my family afford a home.
I poured my heart and soul into my business.
I worked over 60 hours a week trying to grow my business. But it wasn’t working. I didn’t know why I couldn’t be as successful as other people who were growing the same business alongside of me.
I invested in
- therapy (5 times)
- Splankna
- mindset and life coaching
- a billion self-development books
- training
- courses
- and programs.
And even though I noticed some improvements over the years, I knew deep down I was missing something.
I began learning how the subconscious runs at least 85% of our life, our actions, and our reactions. I knew that was the key that I had been missing. I began searching for modalities that went deeper than everything I had tried and when I found them, I began to see my life level up in a way I had only imagined.
For the first time, I wasn’t trying to fix my behavior. I was addressing what my body believed.
I went from barely able to make $7k a year to $30k the next year, and $60k the year after.
- This work shifted how much I could handle in my life with grace & ease and my nervous system resilience & capacity has just kept expanding.
- I trust myself and have my own back.
- I easily make decisions in my life & my business without second-guessing.
- I began using my voice more powerfully in relationships and setting good boundaries through hard conversations.
- I became confident in my ability to truly help others with the gifts God had given me.
- I embodied my worth and my value.
- I was able to show up powerfully through a 30k launch without losing momentum.
- I stopped getting sick whenever I needed to use my voice.
- I felt completely safe asking for financial compensation as well as holding and saving money.
- I continue to show up increasingly more powerfully and visibly as my true self.
The work I did with my subconscious completely changed how my nervous system felt around money, success, and being seen.
And now my mission is to help other female entrepreneurs release the past from their body and subconscious so they can be unlocked to get to their next level in their life and business.
That’s why this matters.
Because if your body doesn’t feel safe, you will keep pulling back right when you’re meant to rise.
You’ll overthink. Delay. Self-sabotage.
Or shrink when you were created to expand.
You don’t need more pressure.
You need safety.
If you're ready to unlock your next level, schedule a free 20 minute connection call with me to see if working together might be the right fit for you.
